Since the day I leave high school, I found myself.
Throw away all the old me and pick up the one who live deep down inside of me.
In the past, I never stop wondering, why life could be so complicated.
everything doesn't goes smoothly in life. I hated myself.

Leaving Kuantan, the hustle and bustle city, and go to a rural area, Kampar. Where I don't know anything anyone at there.
Felt so lost, lonely and yet homesick.
At first I almost hated there, there's no FUN or any ENTERTAINMENT as there's no shopping mall, etc.
But I'm there to study, not having fun.
Studying UTAR isn't my choice, of course with the financial problem, and bad results there's not much choices you can make.
Within several months of staying there, Kampar. I felt so blessed.
The great FOOD of course, meeting awesome people, staying far away from a busy world, great facilities, near to green environment.
I couldn't ask for anything more. 3 months of SUFFER? finally I'm back in Kuantan. THAT FEEL! THE SENSE OF THE AIR IN KUANTAN! (LOL, overeact?)

3 months there, make me realize nothing is more important than your own self.
To be independent, selfish, confidence in one self.
How to live from alone, with no friends until you pick up your courage and go for it.
Do for the sake of yourself. When you're on your own, you tend to learn more.
You stand back up where you once fall down. That you'll never forget the reason you'd fall down.
Will you fall for the same drama(lies), after you realize you're being lied?
Stand for yourself, remember that nobody is there when you need them but yourself.
Why don't you trust and rely yourself rather than other who might be selfish ?

Once I was a naive, low self-esteem, stupid as in many ways, gives more than take, etc little girl.
Thinks that every single penny of sweat you pay out for someone, it's worth to do it, and hope they treat you as how you treated them.
Expectation will always lose for the cruel reality. Less expectation, less disappointment.
People tend get used of how much kindness you gave them, but they forgot how to appreciate it.
As time passed, they slowly forget how to give but take.

I care lesser and lesser.
Who choose to stay in my life, they'll find a way to stay.
Who choose to leave, I have no reason to make you stay.
Be who you wanted to be, not what people want you to be.
I choose to befriended with people who are sincere and loyal.
I choose to hang out who are willing to spare their time with you.
I choose to stay beside people who are similar with me.
Who can open up their heart and have trust in me. People doesn't like being hurt in a long way.

If you choose to have me in your life, it's mostly because I have something that you needed from. Friends are likely to do so.
For example; You befriended w/ someone, because you need them so you can leave "LONELINESS". Loneliness is the thing you wanted me to help you to get out from.

In Kampar, I am so blessed that I could meet so many amazing people.
I was blessed to be in (T5) group out of so many other group.
They were part of my life. Although they play a small role in my life, I appreciate them.
We're the noisiest class of all, people from other group were shock that knowing our group having a strong bond (including lecturer LOL).
We collected the most photo shot among those group.
We learn and grow a little with each other,

It's a short video, but it's carried with lots of tears and joy.
We went through so much together!
T5 ROCKS! I might miss every single moment with these 23 little crazy men and women XD