The word "Moving On" sounded so sarcastic whenever I've been told by anyone including me.
I never wanted to leave the circle. I know that I'm still not stupid enough to go through all the drama all over again. Pull in, welcomed, torn apart, forgotten, push out. Again and again. You're not getting any tired of these drama eh?

Stop being naive. You're just pretending to be someone else and acting like a person you yourself doesn't even like. Pretending someone who might get to be accept and be just like them.

From the first time you wish to and get to fit in, its a whole wrong starting.
You show all of you, inside out.
some people say you're just being real and stupid for giving people sees all your weaknesses.
some said that it's good to you, yourself. Letting them to accept your everything. Not faking out to be someone else.
whats the point of not being the real you? If you are faking they will accept u fully just because u can truely adapt what they like what they dislike what they wanted you to be.
is it wrong that I cant adapt and pretend to be somebody or some friend (characteristic) just to fit in the group?

Why does everytime I put myself into these again?
I like being fit in, perfectly.. But nothing is perfect even I PRETENDED.
I pretended to be bubbly,
I pretended to be happy,
I pretended to be caring,
I pretended to be bold,
I pretended to be good,
I pretended to be nice,
I pretended to be perfect.

I feel stupid and at the same time grateful
That I am stupid enough to show my emotion to whom I cared
Grateful that people shows me their true color too

I no longer wanted to disguise
not because of the tiredness.
It's because I tried, and the acceptance of me is rejected.
If I give up without trying is my fault, but if I've tried and then fall down.
Then that's how I've motivated to stand up and stop repeating the same reason that made me fall so hard and hurt.

at least I've tried. I've been happy before. I've to be more courage and move on.